Cigs and Pine // Scotland

Cigs and Pine // Scotland

12 October 2013; 8:23AM

Cigarettes and pine is what Scotland smells like. Nat and I got off the £13 MegaBus smelling like sweat and lack of sleep after 9 hours of attempting to sleep in an upright position.

The bathroom was our savior at 8 in the morning where we wiped down our skin with baby wipes I kept in the sides of my bag and dry-shampooed the sides of our hair. I watched as Nat meticulously put on her MAC Russian Red, fluffed up the sides of her hair before shaking her head and shoving her orange beanie over her blonde hair.


Cigarettes and pine. What an odd smell.

It was too early to check in with our Couchsurfing host and the light was just coming up in the Medieval town. The dark stones echoed under our boots as we made our way to the city centre to find wifi and coffee.


After sitting in Costa for nearly an hour, we found food and the bus to our home for the weekend. The place was weird with a bunkbed in the living room and two couches. A Spanish couple mumbled something to us as we walked through the door. A South Korean boy nodded as he grabbed tea from the kitchen. Another boy from the Philippines asked us our names while our host locked the door behind us. A cat walked around my legs.


I’m Natalie and this is Mackenzie.

We took another bus. We had no idea where to go. The Docs were too expensive, so we ended up looking at bargain priced items from Misguided and looking at old Cathedrals. We walked up the streets and down the streets and through old churchyards where graves have been since the 1600s.

The city built on top of another city.

We were tired and decided to see The Elephant House, where JK Rowling wrote those books on a napkin. I had a coffee while Natalie read which bands were going to be playing at some festival sometime soon in the local paper that happened to be laying on the table next to us. There was graffiti in the bathroom.


This way to the Ministry with an arrow pointing down into the toilet.

Across the street was Nandos where we stuffed our faces with peri-peri sauce and a nice cheeky chicken sandwich before walking to a local Tescos at night. Edinburgh Castle was lit up in the sky like some kind of beaconing force lighting our way forward to aisle 4 to pick up cheap red wine.

We sat outside in a hotel parking lot next to a movie theatre and popped open the bottle of wine. Stumbling out of the bars next door were girls in short dresses and heels waiting for their boyfriends to slip their arms around their waists to take them home. After a half hour, we had a buzz going and bought tickets to see a movie. I fell asleep in the movie. There wasn’t a happy ending.

We took the wrong bus home.

Glasgow from a train is beautiful. Fast, wild and free. It is full of bacon butties and IRN-BRU. When we got out of the train station the air was full of feathers in the square. It looked as if they just had a pillow fight and everyone was laughing.


We walked to another Cathedral where people were checking the “vibes” of the spirits in the place. I was really hoping there wasn’t anyone there as I stepped on a gravesite to get the perfect picture for Instagram. Sorry.

I found my own personal TARDIS. I found signs outside bars that I identified so well with. We had pizza and white wine and talked about boys and walked through a fun fair watching children screaming and eating candy floss by the fist full.



Two hours later, we were watching Children of Men with the South Korean, the Spaniards and the Filipino and sipping Soju.

The next morning we almost snuck out through a window since the doors were locked but we made it to the train station in time all while Nat wore her dollar sign socks.


January Favorites // 2015

It’s been a minute since I’ve done a favorites post, now hasn’t it?! I’ve liked a lot of things in January and most of them aren’t beauty related, so below are my favorites in two parts. Let me know in the comments some things you were raving about in the month of January. Welcome to a new year!

Beauty Favorites:

Burberry Brit Sheer: I have rediscovered my obsession with all things perfume with this little baby. For the past two years I have been going between only two perfumes: Burberry Brit and Ralph Lauren Romance. Mom calls them spicy. I call them sexy. I feel refreshed and sassy when I wear them, however, sometimes they seem a bit heavy for every day wear. My beautiful friend Paige bought me a new perfume for Christmas that has now moved to my every day “fresh” scent. What is this wonder, you’re asking. Burberry Brit Sheer. It’s like fresh laundry. It’s clean and crisp and makes me feel sexy. In the daytime.


MAC Twig Lipstick: this is the only lipstick I have been wearing (practically) the whole month of January. It’s a dark nude and makes me feel like I could be a Kardashian… if only I had an ass.


Bioderma: Bioderma is just the best. I think any girl who loves make up knows this by now. I have gone through countless bottles of this gem. It’s one of the only products that helps my skin and gets my make up off in seconds, even my MAC “Haute and Naughty” mascara which is a bitch to take off.


Korres Grapefruit Mask: I don’t know why I have never used a face mask by Korres, I love everything else by them. I tried the Grapefruit mask on a whim as I liked the smell of it and it had the word “brightening” in the description and that has been something my skin seriously lacks in the winter months. I have been using the mask once a week for the month of January and I can see some major improvements. My skin feels reaaaaally nice after. My pores look clean and minimal. And my skin does develop a glow after usage. If your skin is starting to look dull or flaky, like mine does, use this mask. It’s good for all skin types (especially us sensitive skinned girls!)


Non-beauty Related Favorites:

Black Mirror: It’s been awhile since a show has drawn me in and made me watch every episode I could get my hands on in one sitting, but thanks to Netflix I have watched Black Mirror with as much enthusiasm as I watched season one of Broadchurch two years ago. Black Mirror has sucked me in and I don’t ever want to go back. I feel as if for the past week I have been screaming it from the rooftops, “WATCH THIS SHOW PLEASE FOR ME WATCH IT!”

Charlie Brooker, the creator, has made something spectacular and as beautiful as the original series of The Twilight Zone, where he has been quoted to saying he was inspired by. It’s a gorgeously done black comedy/satire based on the idea of technology in our everyday lives.

When I started the first episode, I was confused and slightly disturbed by the events of the show. (Don’t worry, I won’t give out any spoilers!) At the start, I was disgusted like most people in the episode, but by the end (just like the people) my mind switched and I wanted the thing to happen. That’s how many of the episodes were for me. I was rooting for one person at the start and then my perspective changed by the end of the episode.

And that’s another wonderful thing, like The Twilight Zone, each episode brings new characters and new storylines. You don’t need 10 episodes to help you get wrapped up in characters, you only need five minutes. And doesn’t that signify how talented the writing is?

My favorite episode is season two, episode one: Be Right Back. It made me cry (sob, more like) and laugh and cringe and mad all in one. It was creepy and horrible and lovely.

So, I’m going to tell you right now to watch it. WATCH IT WATCH IT WATCH IT!


Anthony Bourdain – The Layover: if I was a man and great at cooking and said half the things that run through my mind, I would be Anthony Bourdain. The Layover is his new show on the Travel Channel and like all his shows, it’s brilliant. He only has so long in each city that he travels to and he shows viewers the “real” areas of the each touristy city that one must see. And as someone who loves to travel, it makes me add more places to my bucket list and makes my wanderlust stronger. Bah.


ASOS Truffle shoes: my old “school girl” style shoes had to be thrown away because of the giant hole formed at the toe of the shoe (RIP), but I have now replaced them with a much more modern style of my much loved former shoes. ASOS is the only place I buy my shoes now. They have an incredible range of shoes, free shipping, and free returns which is everything that I can ask from online shopping.


Me, Myself, and I: Okay, start cringing now. Yes, this past month I have been working on loving myself. Gasp. This is something that I have been trying and failing at for months/years, but I have been doing a much better job at it this past month. A couple weeks ago, I had a major nervous breakdown. I was questioning and hating everything I was doing in life. School, work, friends. Hating my skin, my face, my arms, everything. Questioning what I was spending my money on. Questioning if I even like writing, if I’m even good at it, if I should just quit it all now since I’ll never get anywhere with it. Blah blah. I realized a lot of it had to do with confidence in myself. I’m not a hugely confident person and that mixed with anxiety, odd social norms, and a tendency to lock myself indoors all the time can cause major self esteem issues and a quarter life crisis.

However, after my small meltdown, and taking a short time away from the internet and Instagram (with all those gorgeous girls making me hate myself more), I realized what I needed was confidence and finding something I liked about myself. Slowly, very slowly, this has been helping. Each day I focus on something to like: how my hair looks that day, the shoes I’m wearing, how awesome of a job I did on my homework, whatever it is, I focus on it throughout the day.

If you suffer from anxiety or low self-esteem, try to focus on something that you like or brings you happiness. It’s a good way to redirect your thoughts from negativity. I know I sound like a self help book, get over it.


What’s on my face?

What’s on my face?

I was having a conversation with a friend the other day about our make up routines in the morning. After I told her the list of products I slap on my face in the morning, she looked flabbergasted.

“But you don’t look like you have that much make up on!” She leaned forward, looking at my cheeks, my eyes, my brows. “Why do you put so much make up on?!”

It hurt a little bit to have that question asked in such an outraged tone, but I thought about it. Why do I put this much on? Why do I spend so much money on the products that are collected in a box in the corner of my bathroom? Because I love it. It makes me feel pretty. I have more confidence when I have defined eyebrows and my cat eye eyeliner. I love that make up can transform a face. Make eyes brighter, cheekbones higher, lips fuller.

However, this isn’t the first time that I’ve had this question asked to me. Out of all my friends, I’m the one who gravitated towards painting my face and buying that new mascara by Tarte. Is there a reason that we’re now shaming girls who like to experiment with make-up? Because even though I didn’t “wake up like this,” I can make my make up look super natural and as if I did in fact just wake up like this. But, you know, better.

Also, please check out this article about make-up bullying. It’s an interesting read and made me feel better about the number of products I put on my face.

That being said, here is the list of things that I have been loving putting on my face at the moment:

Pond moisturizer
Pore-fessional primer
Origins tinted moisturizer mixed with MAC BB Cream
MAC Pro Long Wear Concealer
MAC powder
MAC Haute and Naughty
Naked 2 Chopper (all over the lid)
Eyeko Alexa Chung liquid eyeliner
Maybeline eyebrow pencil
NARS Orgasm blush
MAC illuminator
Rimmel London Kate Moss 107